I am sat in a cafe on the coast of Wales. The sun is out and although it’s cloudy there is a warmth and beauty to the day.
Today feels good. Having just come out of a black hole of a mood over the last week it feels good to be back in touch with a feeling of gratitude.
My low mood got triggered somehow before I had chance to catch it. I’ve had to back track that one, because it seemed like there really was something or someone to blame. When it’s down to something other than you it feels like you have no power over the feeling and it’s a fully legitimate bad mood. Or so the ego would have us believe.
What struck me though, that just like my dark mood which can come and go, the feeling of overwhelm can come and go without any real change in what we see as reality. Overwhelm, like a bad mood can keep you stuck in one place, paralysed into intertia, waiting for something other than you to change. When we are like this we can choose to blame other people, it absolves our need to do something and this keeps us stuck for longer. It creates more of what we don’t want rather than what we do want.
So I found, along with many others, that when I look for gratitude and what’s good about my day the black hole becomes lighter and the world around me starts looking more friendly and connected. Gratitude and optimism however small shine a light on our conscious thoughts moment by moment. They act as an antidote to the difficulties that can occupy our thoughts. Turns out my black hole is an illusion created by me. I just need to remember to turn the light on.